Heart of Magic

You know, all of this got me thinking… Honestly, I don’t think I would personally keep reading a blog such as mine, unless I am really interested by it and/or that person. So I would like to thank you all for your time, I really appreciate it, and don’t hesitate to contact me! I don’t bite, usually! ;)

Now that is out of the way, today I would like to talk to you about the mechanics behind magic, the heart of mystery, the subconscious mind. Our subconscious controls pretty much everything, making him the true master of our mind and body.

During magic, in order to make it work, one must contact his subconscious with his wish then forget about it. However, this creates a strange double bind when you think about it. Which leaves us with pretty much only 3 viable choices:

1. You believed in magic and it worked.

2. You did not 'forget' properly your wish and set a time limit so it failed.

3. You forget about it & nothing happened.

Actually, everything is possible; the only thing that can prevent it is the time limit you give to it. So when you think about it, as long as you send your wish to your subconscious, forget about those ‘spells’ and take what come to you, magic will never fail. If your subconscious accepts your suggestion (‘spell’), it will take the proper step in order to make it happen

However, I am not sure if it’s really magic. Hypnosis & self-suggestion actually works in a kind of similar way. Roughly, you got the relaxation & distraction of consciousness to enter in trance, followed by the contact with the subconscious then you forget/banish your thought and finally return of the consciousness.

Now, I believe that with proper self-suggestion, it might be possible to recreate this magic system. We could use it everywhere and on every aspect of our life!

So, what do you think?

Défi de Motivation

Aujourd’hui n’est qu’une autre journée filtre en attente de vendredi. J’ai bien hâte à cette fin de semaine et espère que je vais bien m’amuser avec mon amie Gaël. Toute fois, le temps parait très long en attendant. De plus mon amie Valérie que j’aimerais bien aider semble avoir quelques problèmes personnels mais a lequel je ne peux apparemment rien y faire.

Tout cela me laisse dans une drôle d’attente, je me demande constamment ce que le future me réserve. Bien sure je reste sceptique face a ce dernier mais je fais mon possible pour garder les yeux et mon esprit ouverts aux diverses expériences qui puisse m’arriver, aussi étrange ou farfelu qu’elle puisse être.

Lorsque j’essaye de nouvelles choses, un combat débute entre mon fatalisme et ma paresse contre ma curiosité et ouverture d’esprit. Sans ce désire ou motivation, il y a peu de chance que je persévère et réalise quoi que ce sois de concret.

Des fois je ressens une terrible force en moi qui semble n’avoir absolument aucune direction, qui reste sur place à regarder le monde qui m’entour recherchant cette opportunité a ce dévoiler. Un peu comme si cette énergie recherchait une raison a son existence. Peut être qu’une fois que j’aurai découvert cette passion, je pourrai libérer cette énergie qui dort en moi.

Où vais-je ?

Devrais-je continuer à rechercher cette chose que l’ont appelle l’amour ? Il semble que l’opinion soit divisée. Certaine de mes amies pense que ma tristesse vient du fait que je n’ai pas trouvé mon véritable amour, et donc, que je devrais continuer à rechercher une fille qui me conviens. A l’opposé, d’autres pensent qu’il serait préférable de régler ce problème avant d’essayer d’établir une relation durable avec d’autres personnes.

J’ai eu la chance de rencontrer plusieurs filles qui me ressemblaient sur bien des points. Pourtant à chaque fois, ces ténèbres ce sont interposés. Peut être que je ne recherche pas le bon « type » de fille ? Mais comment savoir lorsque je me connais si peu moi-même ? Je suis un mélange de plusieurs choses, tous plus indésirable les une des autres. Peut être qu’une âme sombre et solitaire similaire à la mienne existe quelque part.

En fait, pris dans une impasse entre la vie et la mort, j’ai actuellement de la misère à croire qu’une personne puise être plus triste, ennuyé et perdu que moi. Ne vous détrompez pas, je sais que beaucoup de monde souffre plus que moi dans leur quotidien, que ca sois d’esclavage, de guerre ou de famine. En fait, je ne suis pas sure s’il s’agit plus d’une douleur ou d’un simple vide, une indifférence a mon existence, que je ressens.

D’une manière comme un autre, le sentiment le plus souvent ressenti est celui de l’ennui. Ce puissant sentiment de démotivation et de désintéressement lorsque mélangé avec mon apathie me fait percevoir le monde tel qu’il est. Un monde statique où même les plus grands changements ne représentent qu’une simple altération d’un paramètre, la même chose vue sur un angle différent. Ce ne sont que de simples nuances a travers de cette toile dorée qui est notre existence.

Bonne Année !

Déjà plus de 100 blogs on été mise a jours sur cette page depuis le mois de novembre, un gros merci a tout mes fideles lecteurs ! Je sais que mes blogs ne sont pas toujours été des plus intéressant mais ca fait toujours chaud au cœur de voir autant de visiteur revenir.

Même si la majorité de mon travail est sombre, il s’agit toute même d’une création venant de mon cœur. Certain ce retrouveront dans mes penses alors que d’autres pourrait fortement discuter de leur véracité ou même en être offensé.

Bref, une nouvelle année commence et je vais tenter de faire mon possible pour exprimer tout les choses que je ressens, autant négative que positive. Je vais également écrire plus d’article en français afin d’être certain que mes amis Québécois et Québécoise me comprenne bien.

Bonne année a vous tous !

Valerie, l’Énigmatique, Partie 2

Aujourd’hui je vais vous parlez de mon amie Valérie Clark. Il s’agit de la personne la plus empathique envers mon bien être que j’ai eu le plaisir de rencontré depuis fort longtemps. C’est également l’une des rares personnes qui soit capable de bien me comprendre. Elle a toujours de bonne intension envers moi et je l’aime beaucoup.

D’un côté j’aimerai bien m’approcher d’elle mais d’un autre côté ce n’est pas facile car elle a une vie très occuper et bien a elle avec son amoureux et ces deux filles. J’avoue ne pas trop savoir quoi faire dans une telle situation.

Elle sait toujours quoi dire pour me remonter le moral ou me faire rougir et parle le même langage que moi. Elle passe beaucoup de temps à me parler le matin ou le soir sur Internet et même lorsqu’on n’a rien à dire, on n’arrive toujours à trouver quelques chose d’intéressant.

Ouvert d’esprit, nous n’avons aucun tabou et on partage pratiquement tout nos émotions et secrets sans crainte de représailles. Nous avons chacun notre petit démon et c’est probablement grâce a lui que nous nous comprenons aussi bien.

Valérie est une femme vraiment magnifique qui pourrait facilement avoir tout ce qu’elle désire simplement avec un sourire. J’espère que tu as confiance en toi ma belle car tu as tout les atouts de ton côté.

Malgré tout cela, bien des mystères et question reste présent dans mon esprit. Je t’aime fort ma tendre Valérie et j’espère être capable de te rendre heureuse ou du moins, d’ajouter un peu de couleur dans ta routine.

XXX
- Fred

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone, hope you will enjoy it and have some good times. I wish that all your dreams will come true. Those moments of joy are so few so try to get as much pleasure from it as you can.

Hope you will all be able to celebrate with those you love. As for me, I will be waiting for that special someone, my little horned angel that I cherish so much.

I love you Marie-Helene!
XXX

Ophélie, La Française

Ophélie is at the same time a good friend and my worse nemesis at work! *Grins* We have such a love/hate relationship that some time we find it very funny. Ophélie come from France and got a bad attitude to correct me every time I write in French so I decided to write this text in English!

Ophélie now live in Quebec with her lover. She is still a bit far away from my home so I cannot see her as often as I would like but that certainly won’t stop me to come at least once per year. Speaking of which, she should come see me next time… why I am always the one that is travelling?!

Anyway… Ophélie is really nice once she got to know you; otherwise you are best to be careful. If you see what she is doing to her cat, I can’t imagine what she would do to a human! *Smirk* Oh my, she will so kill me when she will read that… *Look around* Sincerely, she love her cats!

Since I am still alive, I will continue! Seriously, she has a lot of good points. She is a hard worker, persevering and very perfectionist that will do anything to bother her colleague. She is very knowledgeable about pretty much anything and I love to talk with her about all and nothing.

Her weakness? Sushi and World of Warcraft! *laughs* She is really a fine girl, with very interesting interest. She likes to laughs but know how to be serious when required. She is very professional at her work but don’t seem to sleep enough!

Go to bed already! Sleep and relax, you really merit it.

Take care!

XXX

Marie, The Succubus

Marie-Helene is a very naughty girl! *Smirk* Seriously, I really like her; she is one of my newest friend I meet over Internet. The only sad thing about this is the fact that she live so far away from me. We share a lot of interests and already started to create some kinds of complicity!

She works in a dental private clinic as booking clerk near Quebec City. This little horned angel possesses every single interest I have. I am telling you, it’s just… crazy! She loves animes, comic book & movies, rock & metal music, Strategy/RPG video games, MMORPG, RPG pen & papers, and much more! She got a very open mind and aren’t afraid of the dark, as I like to say! She loves funny and dark or gothic movie, but not horror one. She also has a great imaginative mind and like fantasy or science-fiction. Sometime I really feel like I am describing myself! My dear, I give you all 5 stars for this! *laughs*

Physically, she is very pretty. I love her red hair and small silhouette. Also, her facial expressions are just awesome! She make me laugh (or cry) every time she do something. She can easily transmit any emotions she feels to those around her. Her eyes are so bright and pretty that when she stares at you, you feel like she is looking deep in your soul. She also got a very nice piercing at her bellybutton and project to add two nice tattoo on her back. She is very sexy and knows how to annoy while exciting you at the same time. A true little devil!

She is also an incredibly funny girl; I simply can’t stop laughing and enjoy every second I am in her presence. She has an awesome imagination, and just enough crazy to follow me! She has an unbelievable humour sense but more importantly, a children heart. Curious and mischievous, she is the best succubus you can find! *wink*

Her heart can be as big as the world but also as cold and empty as the void. This humble pretty girl prefers to go unnoticed in large crowd. She is a bit introverted but don’t hesitate to protect those she loves around her. Like a fallen angel, Marie-Helene mind is full of contradiction. When she feels comfortable with those close to her, she is direct with no taboo and some time crude in expressing her thought, however she is always sincere.

We both share similar philosophy about life. She is a bit egoist and sometime possessive, both which are important to fuel our ambition. Some time she can get angry, which she let off steam with metal music. She is also a bit dark but not negative and know how to enjoy live at his fullest.

Dear little succubus, I hope I will be able to meet you soon for you are very special to me. You are the dream girl and muse I always wanted, and the perfect girl friend I was looking for.

Love you. XXX

My Adorable Friends !

As you probably noticed I started to post a lot about my friend lately. I must admit that I really like to do this and it seems to interest most of you as well. So if you would like a blog about yourself or have a rather interesting subject, please don’t be afraid to contact me and it will be my pleasure to write one for you.

I would like to finish with this… Thank you all for coming, I love you all! *Smiles*

Dominique, The Teacher

Dominique is as you can guess, a teacher. Yes a teacher, one of my most terrible nightmare and nemesis! *Laughs*

Seriously, she teaches French class as second language in primary school and loves it. She likes to read book, particularly roman. She also likes to watch movie with a special liking for Disney film. She wants to travel through the world to see many different countries and also like camping.

She is a bit shy and reserved but become really social once she feel comfortable. She got a good humour sense and like to laughs. She also have a very open mind and aren’t afraid to try new experience. I enjoy talking with her because she is very friendly and comprehensive.

She is really a good friend and I am glad to have met her. I hope that we will be able to share some time together soon! Good night all!

Valérie, l’Énigmatique

Valérie est toute une fille, mystérieuse mais franche et coloré, vous être sure de ne pas vous ennuyer avec une fille aussi extraordinaire ! Elle aime plein de chose, mais la chose la plus importante pour elle est bien sure ces deux belle petite filles.

Elle aime les arts, mais ne dessine pas, toutefois elle aime beaucoup les images fantaisistes. Elle est bonne en artisanat, particulièrement dans la décoration et montage diverse. Elle adore tout ce qui est médiéval et aimerait beaucoup avoir un mariage médiéval. Comme activité, elle aime bien lire des livres ou poèmes, sortir au cinéma ou aller au restaurant avec son petit copain. Elle est aussi une excellente cuisinière qui invente ces propres recettes. Elle n’aime pas vraiment les sports à l’exception du hockey qu’elle aime bien regarder.

Valérie est une fille calme et timide mais qui a ces petit brins de folie. Elle est gentille, généreuse et très intuitive. Discuter avec elle est très plaisant, particulièrement du a sa grande ouverture d’esprit et le fait qu’elle ne possède aucun tabou. Elle est super compréhensive et lorsque l’on parler avec elle, on sent qu’on peut facilement lui confier tout nos secrets. De plus, Valérie est une fille très indépendante et peu matérialiste qui sais où mettre ces priorités tout en sachant en profiter.

J’ai toujours eu un peu de misère à décerner les défauts de cette fille mystérieuse. Je dirais qu’elle semble être un peu trop cru ou froid à l’occasion du a ca franchise. Elle est allergique aux noix et arachide (Tout un défaut !), ne comprend pas très bien l’anglais et n’écrit pas très rapidement à cause de ces longs ongles qui accrochent les touches du clavier ! *Rire*

C’est une fille vraiment magnifique et je peux vous assurer que son chum est certainement l’homme le plus heureux et chanceux sur terre. Elle est belle, charmante et séduisante. Elle possède aussi 2 tatous ainsi qu’un piercing au nombril et pense ce faire faire un nouveau tatou prochainement.

J’espère sincèrement qu’on pourra partager un peu de temps ensemble car tu est une amie extraordinaire. Je t’adore ma belle et te souhaite une belle soirée !

Jibbi, The Gamer

Today, I am going to talk about my friend Jibbi. Jibbi is a gamer, a hardcore gamer. Even more gamer than me! Yes you heard me well. Is that even possible?

Jibbi is a generous and honest guy, but more than anything he is really resourceful. Hard worker, he can fix about any things fast and easy. He got a good humour sense and a mischievous spirit. Bon vivant, he will amaze you constantly with his silly comments.

Needless to say that Jibbi like to game on his computer. However he also has a great music and movie collections. He like Bob Gratton show and love to smoke “bucket”. *Laughs*

He is reliable but can be a bit hard to switch off his computer. Despite that he is really a good guy and I am glad to have him as my friend!

Blanche, The Mysterious

Blanche is one of my latest friends that I meet last month over Internet. Unfortunately, I cannot talk with her as much as I would like as she is very busy with her studies. She is currently doing a doctorate in medicine.

Blanche is a very mysterious girl. I can’t say that I know her very well yet but I will try my best to describe her. She is the most thoughtful and understanding person I ever saw in my live. She don’t let’s herself be overwhelmed by her emotion, whatever they are positives or negatives; she is always very calm and listen to what others have to say. She is caring, patient, persistent but not stubborn and take her time before answering, analyzing all possibility. Basically, she got every skills needed to become a very good doctor.

She has a sweet little girl, probably the most important thing in her live! She loves to sew her own clothing. Also, she is very good at drawing. Like me, she is a dreamer and idealist. She like everything related to fantasy, such as drawing and role playing games. She also loves manga and anime. When you talk to her, you can stay yourself and say absolutely anything without fear of reprisal and I do think that is what that is making our friendship truth.

What are her shortcomings? Well, I am going to admit that she hide them pretty well! *laughs* She seems a bit timid perhaps, and her logical approach might make her seem like she is cold in some circumstances. Working as doctor in hospital is definitely not easy, it’s very demanding and you constantly see peoples suffering but you can’t let’s your emotion take control of you either. Otherwise, she got her own little demon, like anyone, but I think she is doing really well fighting it.

I would like to finish by saying that she is really a lovable girl and that I am really glad to have her as my friend. I only wish she had more free time to share!

Marie, The Jukebox

Today I will talk about my ex and now friend, Marie-Eve Paul. There is much I could say about her but I will try to keep it short!

Marie-Eve is an incredible girl with very high love, devotion and passion. When she likes something, she will give all her energy and effort in order to improve it. She is very respectful about everything she likes and takes her responsibility and duty at heart. She is very open minded, generous, social with a good humour sense. She got a very good memory and can remember about everything!

What she loves above everything, except her lover, is music. She like all kind of music but mostly punk and pop rock. She can also remember most music once she heard it and loves to play all guitar hero games, which she is getting pretty good as well. She is also very outgoing and love to share time with her lover and friends. She like simple things, such as shopping with friend or going out to restaurant.

Like all little humans that we are, she got her bad side as well. Her biggest shortcoming is her impulsivity. She can also be quite stubborn when she decides something. However, she is currently working pretty hard on those weaknesses and I do believe that as the time move on, she is getting a better grasp on them. Also being stubborn can have its own advantage as she shows great perseverance in order to get what she want.

Why we are no longer together? Well that a pretty good question as she is really a good girl. However, we did not share the same expectation on the kind of relation we wanted. At the end, it made us both sad and unhappy. Do I regret this relation? No, I am really glad to have shared this time with her. I think we had our share of good and bad times. Also, we both learned much from it and I am really glad to have her as my friend!

Sissi, The Princess

I will now talk about Sissi, one of my best friend and our little princess! To me she looks like an anime characters lost in our world, trying to find her way back home.

She is a great friend that unfortunately lost her self-esteem some time ago. But first, I would like to tell you about how great she is! This girl is always smiling and confronts even the worse situation with optimist approach. She is very funny and has a great humour sense as well. She is very friendly, generous and peoples easily feel comfortable around her. She also has a great imagination!

She is very skilled in drawing manga characters and loves Disney movies and books. She also like princess, cute things and anything pink! She likes to go out and meet her friends but have hard time to make up her mind about her wants and desires. She likes to chat, dance and talk with friends even if they got nothing to say! I do think that she is more social than she think.

That being says, our little princess is suffering from low self-esteem. Unfortunately, this is leading to other trouble such as heavy anxiety, shyness and inability to take proper decision for her well being. This also led to major insomnia which drain a lot of her energy and only make the matter worse as she eat during the night.

In the end, she only wishes to recover her lost self-esteem and fight her anxiety so she can finally feel good about herself and her surrounding. Living each seconds with passion, energy and determination.

Dear little princess, everything is related but you really need to raise your sleeves and seriously grasp the situation. Your self-esteem directly comes from your beliefs, your beliefs about what you think you need to do or who you need to “be” in order to be a person of worth. The most frequent domains in which people frequently derive their self-worth are:
- Virtue
- God’s love
- Support of family
- Academic competence
- Physical attractiveness
- Gaining others’ approval
- Outdoing others in competition

If you base your self-esteem only in a specific domain, it will leave you more vulnerable to negative events that happen to you within that domain.

As for your eating-disorder, this is called binge eating and can lead to depression and lost of self-esteem as you feel guilty. First, you should avoid doing any diets during the day. Fix yourself a schedule and eat 3 times (breakfast, dinner and supper) per day. Make sure that you have everything you need or want during your day meal, including sugar, salt and fat substance.

This is not much but I do hope that it will help our sweet little princess to combat her demons!

Be well dear,

Dan, The Cursed

Today, I decided to talk about one of my best friend, Daniel D’Amico. I must admit that he is not feeling well right now but I wanted to devote this little blog to him.

He is a great friend that is always here to help you when you are in need. However, life is not always fair; in fact, it’s not fair at all. Some time even the best guy finish last and that is the story of his life. However, I would like to first talk about who he is.

Dan is very friendly, social, helpful and resourceful guy. Like me, he got a great sense of humour, open mind and likes to try new things. He is interested in pretty much everything, but he really like to share some times with his friends, role playing games, medieval live events, karaoke, animes and meet new girl. *Chuckles* He is very skilled with computers and its ingenuity allow him to fix most technical issues quickly.

He got a great sense of honor, perhaps a bit to great in fact. He is suffering heavily from his pride. He can be quite stubborn sometime and his pride often leads him to decision that he will regret later. I would describe him as he a mortal that want the power of the god. Because of this, he always strives for the very best. However, this constantly leads him to deception. He wishes for the impossible and the perfection but at the end nothing is perfect.

One side of him wishes to control everything but in reality what he is really seeking is to be accepted by his peer. My dear friend, please know that no amount of power and perfection will ever make you happy. It’s the defects and imperfections of our existence that make our life so colourful and enjoyable. Money and power can makes you famous or popular but true friendships are created with trust and love.

I do hope that you will be able to remove this curse with time. Our ego is and will always be our greatest nemesis.

Please take care of yourself old friend,

To you dear readers

Today I will talk about you. Yes you heard me well! I would like to thank you all for coming on my little blog. I never had that many visitors! Thank you do much for taking your time to share my pain and thought. Life is far to be easy, it require courage and hardship to fully experience it. We all must do our best, be positive and good thing will happen!

I have been writing all kinds of stuffs, some darker than others, and worry not for as long as I will have some thoughts to share, I shall continue to write them here! Once again, thank you all for coming. I love you all very much and wish you a good reading!

XXX

A Sick Angel

Dear little angel, I hope you are resting well. As you are currently sick, I would like to send you all my energy in order to help you to recover as fast as possible. I hope that you will think about me as well during your rest.

I only wish I could be there to take care of you. Until we meet again. To you that try to heal my black heart, I wish you happiness.

Some Thoughts for my Angel

I must admit that my soul did find some peace after you left. I really enjoyed talking with you and hope that we will do it again soon. The positive energy that you emit is simply amazing. It looks like that no matter how difficult a challenge is for you, you never despair. You keep it up and always do your best.

I.. I never saw someone with such powerful positive energy. You remind me of Belldandy, a wonderful and ever cheerful goddess in “Oh My Goddess!”. Just like you, she is lovely, caring and always gets what she wants. *Grins*

None have been that far to help me… Sometime I wonder why are you doing this for me. We are completely different and don’t share any interests either. Yet, you are giving all your energy just so my soul can get some rest. When you say that you would think about me even during your sleep it really touched me. I will think about you as well.

For that I would like to thank you. Thank you for everything.

A Little Angel

Today I gonna talk about my friend Nerma. She is like a little angel trying to help me. Our thoughts are very different but it doesn’t matter for her. She is incredibly positive and firmly believes that I can enjoy thing like anyone else.

She is not afraid by the darkness of my heart and is ready to confront them head on. She love to laughs, is very social, understanding and likes to make new friend too. At the end, we both want the same thing; enjoying every seconds of our live to its fullest.

She often talks to me about another world, her little world where everything is beautiful. Tell me sweet little angel, does this heaven really exist? Will I ever see it?

Will you be able to help me where everyone else failed?

Only time will tell, until then let’s keep hope.