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I also feel a bit strange lately, some things like a headache or a pain in my heart. It’s a strange sensation that I can hardly understand or explain. It seems that I easily feel guilty of everything around me, particularly when it involves her. I want the impossible… I want her to be happy forever… but I am just a mortal, a human, an animal.
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I wonder what she is dreaming about… Hopefully it will be nice dream with me inside! All I can hope is that I did not deceive her so far. I am certainly not perfect but I think she is worth only the best of the best and so I must do my best for myself and her. There is so much that I would like to do with her but then again, she might want some time for herself. I love you so much my dearest, but I don’t want you to feel like I am a weight at your ankle either.
I also noticed that I probably need much more attention and affection than anyone some time. If it was of me, she would pretty much always be in tight my arms and I would kiss her about every where! But of course, I don’t want her to feel uncomfortable either. Perhaps I worry too much…One thing for sure, every time I see her smiling back at me, her lovely eyes staring at my soul, it make my heart beat faster than ever and stop any pain I might feel.
XXX